Frightening Day

I had a horrifying day today...Olivia was sound asleep so I thought it would be a good time for me to get a shower, so I put her in her swing and buckled her in it. I hurried and got in the shower and as I was washing my hair I could hear her crying, so I hurried and washed the soap out of my hair and got out of the shower. As I was walking out of the bathroom I heard a thud and my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach. It was one of my worst fears coming true, she fell out of her swing. Her face was down on the carpet so I ran to her (dropped my towel in the process!) and picked her up and I started to cry and panic at the same time. I didn't know what to do. I thought about calling 911 because I knew I was too hysterical to drive her to the hospital. She was crying for a few minutes and she calmed down after I consoled her. I tryed calling Matt on his cell phone, but it was turned off since he was at work. God must have spoke to him because literally as I hung up the phone from calling him he called me. I was still crying and told him to come home so we could take her to the doctor. Matt works only 10 minutes away and it was the longest ten minutes ever!! I called her pediatrician and spoke to a nurse and she asked me if she was moving her arms and legs and acting ok, which she was so I didn't have to rush her to the emergency room. We took her to the doctor and he checked her over really good and he said she is ok. I want to throw her swing away, I am terrified of putting her in it again. I haven't been able to put her down all day I just want to hold her and kiss her and tell her how much I love her. I feel so guilty for putting her in her swing and leaving her unattended. I even thought to myself before I put her in it to lay her in her bassinet, since she was sleeping I thought she would be ok for a few minutes. Guess it was a hard lesson for me to learn, but she wiggled her way out of it even though I strapped her in. I think she handled the situation a lot better than I did.