Hurt Feelings

A couple of weeks ago my sister called me & asked me if I knew that my mom was going to go to Arizona June 6th. No, I did not know that. At that point her flight was not booked & Amy tried to talk sense into my mom telling her that is a WEEK before I am due. I was on the verge of crying when my sister told me this. I couldn't believe my mom would take the chance of not being here when her 4th granchild could potentially be born. The whole thing really, REALLY hurts my feelings.

So, I talked to my mom & I've tried telling her that even though I am due the week of the 14th, that doesn't necessarily mean I will last that long...especially since I am measuring big! All she says to me is "Your doctor told you the week of the 14th" and I tell her that really doesn't mean anything. But my aunt (her sister) guilt tripped my mom & talked her into going on this trip to visit her & my grandma (my mom's mom). I am so angry at my aunt for making my mom feel guilty for wanting to be here for the birth of her grandchild. My mom may be safe and not miss it, but there is a chance she could not be here too. I really want her to be here for the birth of my child. I don't want to call her & tell her over the phone...I want her there waiting at the hospital so she can see my baby moments after she is born. Doesn't she get that?!?

My aunt is very selfish and she doesn't care what other people want or need. Its all about her all the time & that is what makes me so mad. She used my grandma as an excuse to get her out to Arizona. When she could have gone to Arizona the last 8 months, why now, why a WEEK before I am due...there is no urgency. My grandma's not sick. She could live another 10-15 years and Alice told my mom that she will have plenty of time with her granchildren, but she doesn't know how long my grandma will be around. SERIOUSLY my aunt has used this line for the past 10 years! Just to get what she wants. She doesn't take into consideration that my mom does want to be here for the baby's birth. She doesn't think that my mom will be upset if she gets a phone call saying that the baby has arrived? Are you kidding me! Just because Alice doesn't care about this, doesn't mean my mom is like her!

My mom said if I do go into labor while she is gone she would get a flight home...however she has to rely on Alice to get her to the airport and Alice would not inconvenience herself for me or my mom. On top of it all when my mom lands in Phoenix they are not staying in Arizona, they are taking a roadtrip to Colorado to visit my cousin...who is moving back from Germany (her husband is in the Air Force). My cousin will literally be moving into a new house just a couple of days before they visit her! So, that's just the icing on the cake for me...My cousin is here now (they leave for Colorado Monday) and I spoke with her about it and both her and her mom (my mom's other sister) think my mom is silly for going out there when she is.

I could go on about this until I am blue, but its useless. I'm over the fact she is going, but I am still angry at my aunt for talking my mom into it. My mom & Alice are total opposites, so my mom just telling Alice no is not going to happen. Alice is very persuasive & almost bullys people into doing things she wants them to do. My mom let's her. Its the way its always been.

So, my mom comes home June 14th...let's just hope she makes it home in time. I don't think she will.