Saturday, February 7, 2009
FEAR
A few months ago I woke up in the middle of the night thinking someone was breaking into our house. Ever since then I will wake up atleast once a month for several nights in a row with paralyzing fear someone is in our house. I hate this feeling. I think its because we have a walk out from our basement and 1 big window and two smaller windows. What is keeping someone from breaking the glass? That's my biggest fear. I am grateful for Huck because of his strong, husky voice, but it doesn't give me the comfort I need. I woke up last Tuesday thinking I heard something. I honestly think I am hearing loud cracks in the floors from the house settling, but it FREAKS ME OUT! I hear the cracking sound during the day too and it sometimes makes me jump. Well, when I woke up last week I couldn't get back to sleep. Every little sound I was analyzing and thinking of an escape plan. I always have my cell phone on my nightstand, but it doesn't give me much comfort either. Well, when I do wake up I feel like I can't move. My heart starts pounding and its almost like a panic attack. Please pray that Jesus will keep his angels around our house. Any suggestions to make me feel more at east will be good too!!!
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OH you poor thing! That must be terrifying! Remember you live in a good neighborhood and most people must know you have Huck. Anyone wanting to break into a house will choose one without a dog. For no other reason than they are loud if not fierce! I don't have fears like that so that is the only advice I can give. Hope you get a good night's sleep!
Just remember that if something is going to happen, there's nothing you can do to change it anyway, so why worry? I hope that doesn't scare you more, but I used to be terrified that someone would break into our house but then I just finally realized that if that was going to happen it was going to happen whether I lied awake at night terrified or not. So, I might as well make my house as safe as possible and trust that God will keep me safe or able to handle anything that happens. Also, your house is not in a good location to be broken into - that hill behind your house would be a pain for someone to deal with in breaking into. Also, your house would be much more obvious if there was a strange car there because they couldn't really blend into the surroundings like the other houses. Also - make sure you always close your garage door. I think leaving it open may invite people to break in because they can see what is in your garage.
I will add that to my prayers. I am a very fearful person and always have been. I can understand what you are feeling. I do suffer from panic attacks and take anxiety medication when needed. I wish I had helpful advice - the only thing I can offer echoes Amy's. If it is going to happen, it's going to happen. This is what I worked on in therapy a lot of the time. It is hard to accept that you have no control over it happens or not, but you just need to remind yourself that you are safe and that you have a phone next to you, a dog in the house, the house settles and makes noise, etc. I also suggest praying when you are scared. That is what I try to do and it does help.
oh girl, I can relate to this big time! When Shawn used to work third shift and I slept alone at night, I was petrified!!! I would sleep with both reg phone and cell phone under my pillow along with a big butcher knife! haha I was freaked out but was willing to fight if I had too! Then I finally did exactly what Amy said, you just got to grasp the fact that you lying in bed awake is not going to stop anything from happening so you may as well sleep and keep your house locked up and safe as possible, maybe get an alarm system and maybe a butcher knife! haha just kiddin
Also, if Huck is quiet, all is well. I don't ever get concerned unless I hear my dogs barking, as long as they are quiet, I know things are fine. I will definitely pray for you.......I hate that feeling!!!
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