Matt told me its up to me if I want to go to Providence next week. I am so torn. I hate to lose the money on the plane ticket and hotel room we have booked, but I am so worried about Olivia.
I honestly don't know what to do and I hope I will get some encouraging comments to help in my decision!
Olivia does well during the day (most the time) its in the evening where she will cry (if someone else is holding her) and I am the ONLY one to calm her down. She won't even let Matt hold her at night, only me. Which it makes me feel wonderful, but at the same time its very hard. Its hard to leave her with my parents if Matt or I want to go to dinner. For instance, last Friday we had to go to a couple's shower for my friend Beth who is getting married next month. We got to the party around 7:30 pm, my mom called me around 9 saying Olivia had been screaming her head off for an hour before she called me. I heard Olivia crying hysterically in the background so we went home right away. Of course, when we got home she was sound asleep, she cryed herself to sleep. But, I know the only reason she cryed so hard was because she wanted me. Its ALWAYS like that. When I am home with her she is fine. No fussiness, nothing.
I want to go to Providence because I think we will have a great time and Matt has always wanted to take me there. But, will I be so worried about Olivia that I won't have a good time? I don't know. Its not like I am 20 minutes away and can run home if she needs me. Then I start to think irrational thoughts like what if the plane crashes? What if there is a fire at our house or my parents house? All these things are going thru my head and its making me very stressed. I can't even get excited about the trip because of the anxiety I feel. Not to mention how OLivia will feel when she sees I am no where in sight.
What would you do if you were in my position? I am going to feel bad whatever decision I make. If I don't go I will feel bad because we wasted money and Matt will have to go to Indy by himself (thats where we are flying out of) If I do go then of course I will feel the anxiety of leaving my baby.
Please help! I am going nuts!!!!! Matt said I have to make my decision by the end of the week so he can possibly rearrange a couple things.
5 comments:
Oh my girl. I am a bad one to give advice on this one. I left Ryan once with my Mom and sister for a weekend for a friends wedding. He was almost 1. I cried all the way to Gatlinburg, poor Kevin. Everything turned out fine and Ryan was fine but I hated every minute of the trip down. After that I was better. You have to do what your gut tells you. I don't think crying for you will hurt her if she is with someone who loves her but you are her Mommy, you know what is best. You do need time to yourself at some point! Sorry I know I am no help.
I really think you should go. Don't miss this opportunity for your marriage. You guys have a great marriage, and things like this are how you keep it that way. I really think weekends away with just the two of you make you better parents by reconnecting the two of you, and having a good marriage is one of the best things that you can give Olivia.
Olivia will be fine and I really think you'll regret not going. Matt needs you as much as Olivia does, and mom and Matt's mom will make sure she is well taken care of. I bet she'll cry the first night and will be fine by the next day, especially if they are with her the whole day before she goes to bed.
i agree. i totally think that you need to take time for yourself and your husband. olivia will probably cry some, but after a little while she'll be just fine
do what you think you can stand. I can't get in this....
I will pray right now for you
I personally wouldn't have been able to leave either of my boys at that age......for no other reason but that I just felt like I'd rather be with them......Heck, I still have a hard time leaving Daws! ha I miss him like crazy!
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