On Wednesday evening I had my suitcase ready to go, all my notes made out for Olivia and I thought I could handle leaving her. Nope, when it came down to it I couldn't leave her. I feel so disappointed in not going and I feel like I have disappointed Matt. I really wanted to go, but she is sooooo attached to me. Its easier said than done when everyone is telling me to go, no one else is in my position. If she were a little older or younger I think I could have went without problems, but the age she is at she needs me.
I cryed almost all day yesterday because I was so upset. I REALLY wanted to spend the weekend with Matt. We had been looking forward to it. But Olivia needs me more than Matt does right now. So, Matt left yesterday morning at 3 am. After he left I tried calling him to tell him to come back and I would go, but his phone was turned off. I am still heartbroken! I was even considering flying out today with a couple of our friends, but I thought I may have been in the same spot as I was Wednesday and not able to leave her.
I hope the weekend goes fast so I can see Matt. I miss him terribly. I am just in a no win situation. If I did go I would be missing Olivia and wanting to come home, now that I didn't go I regret not going and missing Matt!
I am going to my parents for the weekend so I won't be able to blog until Monday. Have a good weeekend!
9 comments:
I probably would have done the same thing. There will be other weekends.
I definitely would have stayed home when my kids were her age. I never wanted to leave them. Maybe you can spend the weekend planning some time alone for you and Matt next weekend and it only be for an evening or something. That will show Matt that he's important to you too.
Oh and listening to your gutt instinct, is always the best thing to do!
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to tell you to stay your butt home!!!! WHOO HOO!!! yeah she is TOO young!! Good for you!!
I like how everyone told you to go and now they are praising you for staying!! I never changed my tune honey!
I'm not changing my tune either - I still think you should have gone, but after seeing how clingy Olivia was yesterday I can definately understand how hard it would be for you to leave!
wow. you should really start working on her. I know you know that already but maybe you could start asking people how they did it. Sawyer was that bad but I thought it was because he nursed so long. It does get better
I never told you to go! I always said that if it were me, I wouldn't have gone. Don't know who Ms. Sonya is referring to changing their tune.
It'll be ok! You'll have plenty of time to go on weekends with Matt. Try and make peace with your decision and enjoy your time with Olivia and your parents! :)
I just wanted to be supportive either way you decided! You have to do what you think is best for you. Hang in there, Matt will be home soon!!
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